Moon, you know deep down that I didn't leave you, nor did I break any of the promises. I know you'll probably ignore me, which is completely understandable, would explain why you haven't been replying to my texts...but anyways, I just want to talk, sort things out once and for all so you and Frost can be happy. So please, just for a moment..
You know Betta is underage. I don't know what is with you and Erin thinking I'm going out with Betta, yes, everyone by now knows she's crushing, but there's a four year difference in us. A lot can happen in for years, I'm glad to hear you're happy again tho... I've been worried sick up to..well, where I need professional help. But, if this is the actual final goodbye, then..I really hope you get the best in life, you of all people deserve the kindness that comes from the world itself, you're always going to be that spark of life that brightens up everyone's day, so, with that being said, may the future bold well for you, Goodbye...huh, I can't even say your OCs name, I just see you as the girl who showed me so much happiness in the past. ^-^
I found someone who listens to me like you did but doesn't freak out when things go bad and say he is going to kill himself or make me feel like I was the one that did burden in the end. I loved you Zack, I thought you were my missing puzzle piece until this whole situations happened between us. I was wrong though and am sad about it. But you deserve better and so do I. We both can move on now and go be happy.
That's good and understandable. Sorry for being that piece of hell in your life, whoever he is, he's lucky and he better remember that. I never meant for you to feel like a burden. Don't reply to this, it's better off that way. I suppose the promises are off my shoulders. I'll start telling Erin and anyone else, not to mention anything of you, no matter how much I beg, considering I'm already having to set up appointments for therapy and the such. Goodbye, Adrianna.
I have been worried about you and missing you so much 3:
Look in dm in discord XD I A CHEWED UP GUMMY BEAR RIDING ON AUSTIN'S SHOULDER LOL XD XD XD God i love him :3 A person saw i was fairly new to the game and told him to give me that costume lol XD ITSH SO CUUUUTE!!!
The game is called Mabinogi if you want to join us, its super fun with a lot of kick butt awesome cool stuff on it :3
I has 1 week and 3 days left of school an graduation ont he 27th so ill be busy around that time with graduation and family stuff. I dotn have theatre this wendsday though aaaand i may be able to get on discord before theatre after school sometimes soooo theres that. made some additio- oh yeah i still needs to add u to sl i made some new changes and additions :3
Love you sissy! Hope all is going well or, gets better! <3 <3 <3 !!!
Im starting meh book now yeee an, look in my profile im not done with the family portion... lol ill have to look on discord also can u name de ppls in our fam that i havent met, also name (crystal) and (briar) lol i need the right names XD XD XD.
Coold u tell me if you'll be on here or not be on like on weekdays? Cuz I hate not being able to get on discord for 5 days a week 3: an then I don't think I'll have my phone afyet today for this week which with limit my time on here even more -.-. I miss shu guyyyys! *huggles*. Btw blackbloods I'll explain later in the book. Hows everyone doing wts Goin on?
huggles* Luv u moony. Ill see if i can get on this weekend but... I doubt it... I asked my mom if i could have my phone back next week bc i wanna talk to meh friend who is having a hard time bc kids here are talking bad bc she moves school(which, is really stupid like, wtf) so like, yeah we has eachothers backs. but, about de phone mom said something along the lines of we'll see -.-. soooo with that being said, im not sure ill be able to get on discord this weekend... or even longer -.-... thats gonna friggin SUUUUUUCK 3:...
OH MY FRIGGIN GOD I FOUND UNDERTALE- "JAPANTALE" INTRODUCTION XD XD XD WAR BETWEEN OTAKUS AND WEABOOS AND THE WEABOOS WERE BANISHED BY THE POWER OF ANIME!!! XD XD XD XD XD XD Oh GOD thats friggin hilarious XD XD XD. But like, from seeing Rurouni Kenshin, imagining ASGORE as "The Shogune"... ... ...>.> ... Lol... NOPE!
If you havent (heard of or played) either Undertale or (seen) Rurouni Kenshin, *shrug* Eh :D. I love both of um.
Lol, luv u moony ill cya on here tomorrow if ur on :3. *HUGGLESHUGGLYHUGGLESHNUGGLEHUGGLE!* an, wts going on in discord fill me innnn lol. Hows father? an our fam an also hey hows Poro setting in Elysium?
And, ok, i get he may be annoying to you and Das lol, but... how exactly? an also, whats the deal with (Briar) dear god i cant remember her name lol (also our other sister in Emerald Kingdom, like, she's been in the rp-not-so-serious channel channel a lot an ive been wanting to say hi an meet the two that are usually in there, buuuut i just dont know the right times to 3: ive been wanting to get aqquanted with everyone in EK and Elysium lol. I realized Sephtis is Gonju lol XD XD XD NAME CHANGES AN PFP CHANGES CONFUZZLE DE FLIP OUTA MEH!
I dont really know much about it but, well i hope she gets better if its possible and that she's truly happy when she can be *gives a gentle smile from an irl point.* Sorry if i sound ... like ... wierd or something its just i wish people the best at times like that...
Zaryan aka Zack and I have been like doing a deep roleplay of Tera and Elysium now, mainly Tera. We are thinking it could be made into an anime and everyone is coming up with plot twists! XD I'll post you some of what happened.
"Bye little frogs." Moon waves to them and smiles at Zack. Vala and Zhulu hear the frogs behind them and turn to see us both releasing the frogs. They all begin to drawl their weapons out. Vala: "So you were right...something was off, Zhulu. I spy a Castanic and High Elf." holds her reaper blades to each side. Zhulu: "See I told, you I was right. And look there is Moonpelt right there." Vala: ">~<' Why do they have frogs?" Zhulu: "Doesn't matter. We need them not the frogs." They start walking towards us still holding out their weapons. Zhulu: "So your a liar and cheater? Such shame you have, young High Elf." he grins taunting Zack. "Surrender or choose a painful fight for your captures." Zaryan grins and sticks my tongue out,standing up with my hand in my hips,playfully so you're zhulu? The pathetic replacement I've heard so much about? Wow...I thought you were vergos for a moment,you got a face,only a mother could try to love laughs and then sees vala,mouth drops. Zhulu: "The face here that will show such horrors is your's my friend. We will not ask twice, under the name of the Federation Guards, you both are here by under arrest." he pulls out his staff as it begins to glow bright red with fire. "No way are we going with you both! The Federation can kiss our asses!" Moonpelt drawls out her bow with an arrow pointed at them. Zaryan draws both swords hey elin,maybe we can go have dinner together or something,you must get bored following around a pansy ass like zhulu tilts head and gives a cute look Vala: "Wait what? I hardly even know you though!" her face turns pink and isn't sure how to respond.
We are going to roleplay all day today. I swear in the name of the gods, I love this roleplay and Elysium and Axia! Sure beats the hell out old freerealms past roleplaying. Dasmirus's old leader Captian Vincent though I don't fully like but have to respect. Everyone in Axia seems to act like pansies since he came in. I was told he was an old Ancient of Death and a Crimson Moon. This whole roleplay is like a complete flip-over of past but with Alex being second in command, Balto being top dog, well you know what I mean. Dasmirus seems to be acting like how Balto would to new Alex by being a kiss up. So like this. Balto --> Alex, flip-over, Alex --> Balto. Dasmirus --> Vincent. I wanna and will stay in it though, it's where I belong. Ren reminds me of someone but I can't recall his name, I'm starting to warm up respect to him. Kenso reminds me of Derpy, chaotic and disrespectful sometimes,hates me lol. x.x
hm. a little confused on whos who and who is on wt side but, neat. can i join as my character??? Im an elin, buuuuut since i dont know much about Tera, can i incorporate that in as well? like just be me in elin form? i wanna joiiiiin! I can hopefully get on discord after i do some hmwk. i hope to get done today buuuut i have a bit to do so :T. Is everything going well btw? im quite happy to hear about a fun roleplay like this and im glad you seem tobe enjoying yourself :) Nice turn from some of the stuff thats been going on, which is rather a lot.
Could u tell Koshin, Achilles and father that im sorry about wt happened yesterday. Idfk wt that was i was extremely tired and didnt know if that situation was like just rp or not so much so. An, i hate seeing ppl talk like that it just gave me a bad feeling, but lol if it was just rp then i dun see a prob but idk if it was. Either way i shoukdnt have gotten in to that. I havent said snything to das, an yes, i still would have attempted to save his life even if i knew he did wt he did to kodhin before hand.
But uh yeah, i dobt trust Das now unfortunately... wish i could but (and, i hope this situation was PURELY rp wise, cause id like to have his sentence be rp wise as well) i cant really after seeing the sh-- he did to koshin... again, i hope it was just meant fir rp an they dont have a serious prob with eachother beyond that...
so, not gonna deal with Das anymore, i talked to Koshn, said some thngs, ill continue to protect her. Tried talking to das, wasted my breath it seems but i said what i needed to. Basic gist, I want to see everyone in Elysium as family and protect peace for everyone, even if others dont see me as family or other people as family in Elysium. Thats how i am and i dont see that as ever changing.
I wish i could see how Das protected you that one time i may be thinking differently about him, but, i did try my best to save him even though i was untimately rejected and he took it in his own hands rp wise, but at least he knows to what extend i'd go, even how i reacted when seeing his "demonic" form, thats how i am and its because i want to protect everyone that im like that. Koshin has said she doesnt see Das as family, thats not how i am even though i am not close with Das.
Something i want to say about how i work rp wise: When Das took mattters in to his own hands ans started that ritual, he basically rejected me when i was trying to heal him. I understand that he knows more about the situation himself, but well he sees the extent i'd go to heal even him.
the way i reacted when seeing his demonic form, yeah i didnt know the situation fully, but when seeing the lightning, and the way he explained the ritual turned in to a failed exorsism, yeah i can work with that little bit of knowledge.
sighs, tired from all of that.* Nonetheless, i see Elysuim as family, even if other in Elysium dont, meaning i want to protect everyone, even if there are some who dont like others, or me. That's the way i am and i dont see that ever changing.
also, i read that Aunt Sage is worried bc father hasnt replied o her messages in a while, has he talked to you at all lately? and can u sand this to Aunt Sage -> "Hey, Aunt Sage. Im not allowed on discord during the week, but i am (hopefully) on weekends. Father hasnt messaged me lately, but he could just be busy. Ill try messaging him when i can get on hopefully on friday or the weekend. Sorry I havent been able to get on. *Hugs.* Have a good rest of the week Aunt Sage :)."
1: My friend introducted me to the Vent app which, its not all depressing stuff and the community is great, plus theres happy stuff on there to its kinda like posting things with emotes, theres different groups for different situations and like "Following" or "Adding" someone is called "Listening/Listeners/Listening to" so, yeah theres that. Ive also foudn that writting song lyrics and short books and stuff about irl issues and stresses is a good way for me to vent or collect my thoughts on something.
2: My niece's mother is movign to California in 3 weeks and leaving my niece with us till she can find a place...
Kaydence(my 1 somethin year old niece) doesnt have a father(bc my bro is, just, i got a million words im not going to say, lets just say he doesn't give a d--n) and, her mother doesnt even pay attention to her, like, my mom is the one watching KayKay most the time, and FAR to often. Nieces mother should pay FAR more attention to her only daughter then she is, but nope, she doesnt. and now she is moving away to somewhere where she only knows 2 ppl that dont give a crap so i've heard, one of her new bf's and his best friend, both ive heard most likely wont care for her or my niece, but she has SO much support here. My mom(nearly 24/friggin7) and her mom, life wtf.
It's only goign to be a matter of time before she takes KayKay away, and my sister, good friggin god she's gonna be devistated, she's 11 adn really sensitive to these things and she loves kaykay to death... so im gonna be worried for her... I dont wish Kaykay's mom ill will, but god dang i hope she figures something out to have a stable life for her and especially her child.
Same but, either way its very likely Nakisha(my niece's mother, my sister-in-law --wish we could've been sister but, she did make my mother cry once, saying she couldnt ever see Kaykay again. this was a while ago, but still, loses some trust and, well now theres this-- , its just stupid, she has so much support here, anda very slim chance where she's headed. -.-. but, i guess i wish the best for both of them, and that maybe both Nakisha and my brother-this would be a friggin miricle- would shape up for the better) will take Kaykay with her eventually to California.
Mom wont let me keep the Vent app -.-. i met someone on there already and it made me happy seeing some of his "vents"(posts). gave me some hope. ive always thought ya know, bad tiems dont always last forever, nor do good times but i try to remember band tiems dont last, and his posts are like that in a way. Idk how the hell i get so friggin sad about having to leave ppl i.e being kicked off of Vent. i just met a few ppl and now im sad that i have to leave the dang app... *sighs* thats just me i guess... same thing with discord to, i can read the friggin thing, but i cant type bc mom will know im on there. its like my voice is completely silenced it sucks.
I had a horrible nightmare about Austin last night, like, holly sh--. I guess im missing him a lot... or, just sad or something idk... *sighs and huggles* How are you and everyone else? any word from father?
Could u send a message to zem "Sorry. Been busy wuth theatre i gtg at five an dinners soon. Been getting to sleep aeound 10:30 bc of theatre. Have to wake up at 6 for school. 1 time it was a half hour early. Performed the lion king jr play yesterday, again today and tomorrow. I miss u and want ti talj to h so bad rn 3: cant have any social media except facebook on my phone till graduation in 2 months. Ill try to get on when i can this weekend but idk if imms be on for the rest if the day bc mom was rushung me an i typed to u bc i wanted u yo know, then she got mad, an yesh so -.- Sorry hun. Luv u *wants yo hug u so bad rn.* ."
Gtg for the play wish I could show u lol but I'll send pics my mom takes when I can. Luv u sissy an, yeah I'm curious how srsly wts the prob with Austin? I'm worried is there an issue? Plz tell me if there is.
"-.- wont be on for the next few days, maybe even until next week. i am really starting to get irritated with my mom rn bc she says i cant take my phone to theatre bc i cant socialize with actual ppl, but i can socialize JUST fine, i was taking selfies with friends and showing them videos and i wasnt even on it the whole time like, mother f---. Sorry i wont be on. i really miss you though, and everyone else. we havent really talked in what, 2 weeks? *sighs* sorry hun." plz send that to zem if u can. im sorry -.-. luv u sissy... sorry. *hugs*
I love you too and I will do my best. I'm so fucking tired from work tonight. Some idiot kid came up to my co worker and I, asking for slime if we sold any in such a serious tone. I'm like uh no?
Bloody fucking hell, I hate Morrigan and Morgana. They snitched on me when I was trying to spy on a meeting and explore the castle. I know I'm Dasmirus's spy agent and loyal to him but I'm kind out of the loop in things. Renari is really a good friend of mine in there, I am so glad. I don't care if anyone else hates me in there. I want to prove my worth so badly to Black Hand. Their roleplaying skills are so unique and highly skilled, it will take me months I feel like just to get the hang of it.
Like this for example: Moonpelt jounces to her left, before the spear perforates her core.
Lmao, Balto and the others spammed my wall on another wiki yesterday. They don't realize a few things. 1. I'm right with a lot of my statement, explaining how FRS is dead or will be.
2. I don't give a fuck on what they say, it wasn't for them to see. It is for other FRS members, not them,
3. I completely ignore them now
4. I don't give a fuck on what they say
5. I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ON WHAT THEY SAY
I could careless about anyone of them, which I do. They aren't my problems really anymore. xD Even though revenge on them seems nice, part of me is holding back and that's where the I don't care anymore comes in.
Witcher 3 looks pretty damn badass. Tera will always be my favorite but I guess in order for me to understand somethings then I need to study on what Axia is like, they never been to my world before. But they have, Elder Scrolls and Witcher 3.
OMG Dasmirus has a twin brother?! He isn't as handsome though as his brother. I felt a very very strong aura magic sense around them both when they presented to each other.
Moonpelt stood erected on the rocky foundation, feeling the magical energy flourish around her, as she saturates the light. Once saturated the light, her hands glow a dark purple aura and conflagration burst around her vessel, glints of it strewing in the atmosphere. She assaults toward the other figure's image in front of her, bending down and uppercuts her fist towards the surface of his chin in a swift movement. However, the opponent jounces to the left and flanks her with a hard kick.
Lol finisged with performong the lion king. It was so fun but im glad for a break. So whered you lwarn this rp from? Tbh i need to up my vocab there may be a few words in here i dont know. Idk lol but yeah i like that i can learn new words from rp :3. And, hm. Do you think i xan join you in black hand? I would still want to hold to my pacifist views however, but, to put this simply, i want to be with you if that makes sense. Im your sister, i want to be close to you and, well i want us to be a team... if you can accept that. I know our differences a bit more clearly now kibda from the past weeks, but yeah you do wt u do and ill do wt i do, but i also want us to help eachother out, also i wanna know wt u know to an extent. Sry im bad at explaining this, i want us to be a team is all.
Jounces, perforates, saturates, conflagration, syrewing, assults towards (ik wt assult means like if u assult someone, but assilt towards, no idea). So, those r words in there idk. Also, with rp experience and style and such. Im not going to get judged based on my lvl or style of rp am i? Everyone has there own lvl of rp so i dont judge that stuff, but i have been judged by others, and i just think thats a bit cruel.
Luv u sissy. Hope to see u today but I'm unsure if mom's still mad at me so, if not on discord I'll see u tomorrow on here I guess. 3 days of school this week then 5 days of spring breAK so I hope I can get on discord then.
F typing lol. An *sighs* how come your in it if they are the way you just described. I understand u dont want me to get hurt, but if you can endure that, i want to be able to as well... im not sayibg that your blantwntly calling me weak, but i want to learn from that you know? If you dont think i shoukd join, then very well...
Christ... some roblox thing? Byt i heard the word shooting and killing but it seemed life like, like wtf. Oof that scared the sh-- outa me. I told her to close out if it and she did so, so, im good now.
Oh fudge i have reading to catch up on i may have to do that the eho k w day bc im waaay behind bc the book is hard. Its called Brave New World. I have like oh ahoz more then 100 ish not sure pages to read by wndsday HOLLY F---
1. In a spar, training fight, fight or battle Don't fuckin take 20minutes to respond. If your going to fight, fight. That simple. I mean I can handle waiting in some types of roleplaying but not with these.
2. Don't fucking powerplay. Granted I was one when I was little but that's cause I was a kid and didn't understand.
3. I hate childish roleplaying for example: *Grabs throat ntn* *grabs throat* Um no thanks, learn to expand your vocab, your movements and actions before you roleplay with me.
Ntn?) An lol read the sls rules for rp XD I'm there with ya no stalling an shiz like that. Ttyl. MAI KOHAI ISH ALIIIIIIVE. Not the happiest situation though but she is getting help so I am so relieved. Am I'm happy to hear from her on our school docs so yay I hope communication gets easier between us. I'm so relieved, a bit worrieD still but relieced. Ttyl showering now sissy luv u *huggles*
Got to page 50... supposed to habe read to like 73 last wendsday and add 69ish more to that? Thats how much i have to have by this wendsday. No way imma get there byt i have to have 5 annotations and 1 quwstion for a group discussion... an holly crap imma fall asleep rn... whyyyyyyyyyyy.
huggles* I think im good, with the situation i said eariler, im good i think... now i just have to wait for my friend to reply and i can go from there so. *sighs and hugs you* is everything alright with you?
I was worried for a friend and i had a dream and my feelings just spun out of control this morning because i was to worried and i missed her, but i collected my thoughts some what and wrote to her, deleting the other things i said(after almost saying nvm about the whole thing several times) and so, yeah im comfortable with the last thing ive said so now all i have to do is wait i guess...
but, one thought i had, must be the most stupid thing i could think of rn, although my mom says im not stupid im just confused about... well... relationships and such. so, yeah i attempted to sort some things out in that last writting and, my friend, i hope she understands.
And, in Prep for Life class we did a MBTI text activity thing, apperantly im an INFP type and ohhhh myyyy god i look at the info for this stuf and im all like YEP, THATS ME! I also saw that Kenshin Himura and Soujiro Seta(From Rurouni Kenshin) are also INFP which, btw INFP is liiike 4% of some population im like >.> daaaang, i can relate to Kenshin and Soujiro like, holly flip, but its like >.> negative situations... but in my case at least, i dotn want to change that about me but i want to like cope with it better. i.e there was something i read about like dealing with things from remembering past experiences and a tendancy to go in to a fearfull mode and avoid certain situations all together... ... ...yyyyyyeah.
INFP is the ninth most common type in the population. They make up:
Um ... w-what? Is this comrade your talking about, me here? Sorry but un... look Idc if ppl are gay or not, no idea wt exactly is going on, I'm thinking some are offeneed my my sisters words here even though she's not really being seeious, not that I see anyway. Scuse me I just got ... nervous i guess. An, i didnt really pay mind to that remark moon said, i knew she was joking and meant no harm, but i mysekf wouldnt ever say anything like that either bc, i hate that kind of thing IF used to offend ppl so, im just stating where i stand here... and i uh... guess moon is sort of right, i shouldnt post things so carelessly on here, seeing others will read... and react to it... which is why im so nervous rn. Im self consious sorry... ... ... sry guys, but also, i dont want anyone attacking us for wt we say to eachother... i-i thought we could talk about a little more private things, not to private i guess but... i figure not after seeing all of this.... s-sorry.
sighs* sorry... I saw a certain word in BettaWolf's last message and I froze in... fears from the past so, sorry, now I realize your just talking about how moon used the word "gay"... tbh, me, i dont say things like that but i do think moon was only joking... i dont think she meant it to insult... ok i have no flipping idea... just i dont like seeing ppl get harmed... thats my problem... i hear teasing insults, trash talk and swearing all the time, do i participate in it, no. ... ... ... rn im in a state of mind where i think for long long hours about life and situations sooo yeah that may be why im like this rn, that and the fact im just generally shy, dont like hurting others and am uncomfortable when i think others dont like me to the point i feel i have to clarify my intentions to ppl ... sry -.-.
... ok, im tired and shy/nervous... sry... imma go to bed it's 10:12 pm atm so... yeah. Moony message me on here when u can... ... ... "Heiwa!" Ne-san! Omfl 3: ... *thinks irl: "iii probably look like such an idiot rn... this is gonna keep mee up all night, well maybe relate other situation im dealing with rn to... my god... BAKARYO! (Japanese... im.an anime fan"otaku" so not fluint.)"*
Wh- *laughs and covers my mouth* oookay then lol XD. Good/surprised to the the goofball you come out in this situation moony. I'm sry I got so... skittish yesterday on here... i-I often pamic during situations and im well... dealing with a whole other situation that I'm like this when dealing with so... yeah. ... I kind of felt targeted donewhat, not necessarily by BettaWolf but Balto and the other person... ifk, maybe, idk... guess I have some trust issues beyond wt I thought... im the type to agree with BettaWolf, however knowing you were joking aND such and k see thst kind of thing all the time. If it were me she asked to stop, I would. But that's just me lol im not trying to make u do anything. ... and as for Balto, whoooo tf cares weather I use XD or :3 there EXPRESSIONS and F why do ppl judge others based off of rp skill, I mean, I'm not exactly a newb, I have experience, but I just hate that were ppl r like I'm not gonna associate with u bc u rp poorly, like, I mean wtf dude. Not saying anyone did thst last night, but it's a fear I have and I hate that it happens...
... about wt I said last night about talking on here... I think im a bit more of an open book when I probably shouldn't be but... i dont think i can really help that... but idfk i wabt to talk with u sbout things... i just dint want to be attacked or judged or targetted fir it. Which, yesterday, made me realize that. Not that i felt attacked really, but yeah a whole lot eorse coukd have been said...
My fingures are curled in my hair, my forehead reasted on the palms of my hands.* Yeah i deleted some things... i have it copy/pasted if you want to hear it though... im really in a nervous spot rn and im scared bc of it... but i want to friggin speak my mind, but i dont want to look like an absolute fool for it.
... in the end i just want to know i can trust someone... maybe even be friends with them. *I sigh and curl my fingures through my hair, putting my forehead against my palm.* i probably sound like such a fool though bc i want to speak my mind all the time and show whats truly inside me, what the hell am i frigging thinking.
but then again, i dont see that ever changing... does this all make me so immature? *sighs* i guess im just wanting to know from others that im mature enough... *my hands clench tighter.* but hearing im not mature enough to even handle a relationship, from my own mother. dang it!
"My thoughts swirl in a wild, merciless storm. The clouds are thousands and thousands of shades of white, grey and black. White feelings, my soul and true purity of heart. Grey fears and uncertainty, a thousand questions unanswered and forever changing about myself and my own actions and thoughts. The darker shade of grey that isn't nearly black but on the verge of such color is the questioning of why the world works the way it does, why is there pain and suffering in the world… why is there cruel people and less than kind words spoken, pain, death, loneliness, unfortunate fates and lies. This harbors the blackness of defiance and the will to make ideals a reality although it may be so far from achievable…".
Have to read 100 pages before i can get on discord. Plus i have to make anmotations and cone up with a question for group disscusion so mom says i csn provsbky get it done by the end pf tomorrow if i work hard at it. Which, i hope so, so yesh after im done with this i csn get on discord. Luv u sissy an, do you thjnk we can continue talking on here lije we are or, well lije i sometimes do anyway. Sry lol. Ttyl luv ya sissy.
I found today I read 10 pages I think in a class per so I may be able to do a biT more in 50min so, I just need to read like 5 hours straight or so to get this done... it's a bit of a difficult book but, DETERMINATION MEH FRIEND, DETERMINATION! <3! Although I think I van get like 10 pages in like 30 min, that's T happened with another book but that was waaay easier to read and shotter to so, yeah.
THANK YOU! I'm on page 78 oUT of 170. Started on pg 69 so... holly f I'm so tired, I layed down and dozed a bit an the light was on do i stayed up an continued some reading then i ate an had to watvh meh sweet lil niece thrn i showered abd now im exhausted asf. *breaths in deeply as my eyes are drooped, then i exhale and hug you.* imma go to bed. My. Mom likes to sleep in eventhough i asked her to get me up earlier(like 8am) so, idk wt she'll do... but naturally i sleep till like anywhere between 9-10:30 so. Im going to read as much as i can an moms only gonna make me do laundry, probably excersise but idk, but other then that imma read the whole day so, i hope i can ne on tomorrow. *hugs you tiredly. *night, love you big sis. ... *shnuggles for a few moments before going to bed.*
Breemee33 wrote: Wh- *laughs and covers my mouth* oookay then lol XD. Good/surprised to the the goofball you come out in this situation moony. I'm sry I got so... skittish yesterday on here... i-I often pamic during situations and im well... dealing with a whole other situation that I'm like this when dealing with so... yeah. ... I kind of felt targeted donewhat, not necessarily by BettaWolf but Balto and the other person... ifk, maybe, idk... guess I have some trust issues beyond wt I thought... im the type to agree with BettaWolf, however knowing you were joking aND such and k see thst kind of thing all the time. If it were me she asked to stop, I would. But that's just me lol im not trying to make u do anything. ... and as for Balto, whoooo tf cares weather I use XD or :3 there EXPRESSIONS and F why do ppl judge others based off of rp skill, I mean, I'm not exactly a newb, I have experience, but I just hate that were ppl r like I'm not gonna associate with u bc u rp poorly, like, I mean wtf dude. Not saying anyone did thst last night, but it's a fear I have and I hate that it happens...
Oh part of that was a joke,and the other part of that was meant to be an insult in a way too. I deleted their comments cause their not important really. Not to mention I ignore them now, don't care, find them humorous to make fun of here and there every once in a while, this our wall and our conversation.
Alright... *just woke up a few min ago... still tired bc the baby an mom kept me up though the door was closed* ... um ... *looks uncomfortable as i scratch the back of my head* you know when i said i have another situation im dealing with?
Well when Betta got offended from wt u said, one of the name calling words you said ... kinda related to that but im not sure and im so confused agbout it bc ive never felt a certain way before towards a ... women *Scratches my arm slightly, my face probably slowly turning a light shade of red.* and im not even sure that thats the case, i just have no idea i mean, really, no clue. ... and, this has nothing to do with roleplay, it's reL life...
buries my face into my palms and sighs* I have no idea. I mean, my mom tells me that ppl who are like that have something chemically wrong eith them and that she only knows 2 ppl who arent "crazy" but then again ahe said at the end of the day, if thats who i truly am then she'd support me. But, im not crazy am i? *sighs* ive been freaking out bc of this for like 4 days now.
sighs* you know what, this is our conversation and, I wabt to trust you after all we've been through and how long weve known eachother, and the others have no business in this, I mean I can't stop them from reading this, but they don't have to butt in.
One of my friends at school whom i call my kohai, she calls me Senpai, this being due to the fact shes a lower grade then me and were really good friends, her and I havent really talked in like a month, could be more. About two or three weeks ago i stopped seeing her in the room that were both in (for different classes st the same time). And so i started to really worry.
I feel guilty for, in the past, not talking to her much due to being on my phone which is really stupid but, she always said she didbt mind it...
Then I find out just maybe a week agI that she went to shodair for cutting... and niw I feel stupid for never noticing...
I started really getting worried and feeling guilty and couldn't stop thinking about it, then I had a dream and stayed up bc of that, and then the next day idk wtf happened but my emotions spiraled out of control and then well... yeah. ... but the thing is, all through that day, idfk I could literally feel I was blushing and there was this feeling in my stomach, and now I can't get this out of my head, I've been having dreams about this nearly every night since...
I've also been thinking about life and such and how I just want to protect people, everything I've said about peace is becoming more and more of a reality, I mean most of it is already true but I'm realizing more and more of it I guess.
But, through all of this, now I'm getting so confused about relationships bc, during the day I was blushing and such, when I thought about her, I felt like I usually do when I was in a relationship with a guy so, I mean, I really have no idea what this is.
Well I mean, what do you think of what I've said about kohai? Sorry if you'd rather not talk so personal as I do on here where we're not in private, or if you'd rather not respond to this at all, idk I'm jusT wanting to know how you'd think of it is all... sry. Idk.
Eh it ain't gonna work like that probably till I graduate high school in 2 months. She wont let me have anything but fb and fb messenger on my phone. Thats why i cant see u guys on discord fir 5 days out of the week. And yes im 18.
Happy easter though sissy! <3. Say happy easter to poro, leo, father, unvles cinder and Achilles, Koshin, sephtis, astaroth, aunt sage and the others in fantasia fir me if u can =^.^= also, i pmd u on discord u can answer on here if you want.
Gonna go to bed niw after staying up to take my mind of a huge fight and then long rediculous talk with my step grandmother sooo yeah mom saI'd I can get on discord tomorrow. Yay. Luv u sissy!!! =^.^= *HUGGLYHUGGLESHNUGGLYHUGGLESHNUGGLES SHU!* Gnight.
I have no hmwk, just got my grade up to a C the rest are A's and B's so, i may actually be ble to get n discord tonight. im at late night fror newspaper rn an so mom doesnt pick me up for another half hour lol.
I found a really beautiful app, well three of them, there like choose your own path kind of story games. one is called Teen Samurai, the other is Ninja Assasin+ and then theres My Samurai Romance. Ive been playing Ninja Assasin+ and i loooooove it! i have yet to try out My Samurai Romance or Teen Samurai yet, im hooked on Ninja Assasin+ =^.^=.
This is the first roleplaying group that I feel comfortable with. They even seem to like me still even when I'm a villain in this all. I never had that happen before. x3 Old past roleplays were shitty as fuck and everything was just a mess. Here it's like ok we all are grown ups and know this is just a game.
Mm. I see. *my eyebrows crease as I allowyself to show my dossaprovel of your plan to take over Elysium, however something in me doesn't quite show just yet, full of sadness and maybe even a hint of envy.* (mornin sis. I have loads of ideas for my kingdom and the book im making for my world yay!))
If hat is what you wish for Elysium and Axia, and father and the others oppose you, i wont get in anyones way then... *still, i seem deeply gurt by something, something that you are not the cause of.* ...
OMG I MESSED UP ON MY NINJA ASSASIN GAME AND CLICKED THE WRONG THING DANG IT NOW IM AN IDIOT AND I CANT GO BACK TO FIX IT AND I CANT CONTINUE THE STORY TILL LIKE 3 HOURS FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDGE DANG IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DX DX DX WAKASAAAAAAA!
YAS I AM SO HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I GOT TO DO ANOTHER PART OF MEH GAME, AN YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY DA SITUATION WILL BE FIXED YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I LOVE THIS STORY SO FRIGGIN MUCH!!!!!!!!!
Btw, i loved watching the storyline rp... i just... i'm starting to see how, in a ways, ive shown disrespect lately involving it... ... ... ill talk to you about that later i guess... but, i need to fix some things with, well, especially Father and Uncle Achilles... I want to talk with father about this first though... I guess through this im kind of learning some thigs about myself... that i hope to cope with better. *gives you a small smile briefly.* See you later, older sister. I love you.
Oh, hey i started working on Core Dimension again =^.^=. Ive been thinking abour making a few certain things for you and some of the others in Soul Legacy and Elysuim, also, ive had various ideas about additions to Soul Legacy in terms of connecting it with Core Dimension.
Oh, Core Dimension is the book i showed you on this chat thread. Its about my race rp wise. Im changing th title to Core Nature, i may change it again idk. How are you? Kinda is a bummer some times when i only have one friend to talk to irl over fb messenger but she doesnt go to this school im at anymore so, yeah. and then there are times where one of us is busy when the other person either wants to hang out, or is trying to deal with something and needs the other person... *sighs.* i miss some of the ppl irl whom i havent gotten to talk to in... well in friggin months and this friend im talking with over messenger is really all ive got rn besides everyone on discord but ... *looks down* i dont know... ... ...i dont regret any of the friendships ive made on discord, i love you all as i would irl as friends, but i miss you guys and my other friends far to often... it makes it really hard to not worry about stuff like this when i cant see people very often any more...
Pivots My foot as three stalagmites uproot and deface the terrain at you left, right, and front flanks The points pierce through your flesh as they emerge at their opposing sides
Me: I try jouncing to the opposite sides as well as ducking down swiftly enough before the roots touch me. The conflagration in my hands, sprawls and saturate the roots, dissolving and turn to ash.
Renari: The heated stalagmites continue their wakes never to turn to ash as that type of heat isn’t even gonna work on such a solide surface, you stumble and collapse back due to your jouncing and ducking at the same time. The stalagmite at your fore misses your visage by solely a inch
ME: Stumbles backwards and getting up quickly. My flames in my image's palm begin to intensely flourish, heating up the atmosphere and it begins to catch, combusting erupts as it then suffuse, sprawling all around, a ring of fire surrounds you. Polluting the atmosphere causing you vessel to choke.
Hey I may not be on discord today, my friend just invited me to bowling todat so there's that. Idk lol. Austin (Zemlin) and I just goT back together an I couldn't be happier. Turns out we have the same personality type.MBTI INFP https://www.16personalities.com/infp-personality it'll say something in there about like outer senses an such, well lol I hear this week is a wierd week for Cancers, the birth sigh, getting lonely at school, an we've been talking about like love and dating in prep for life class and now everything that happened lasT night. Wierd right? I'm so happy!!! I'll read everything u just typed later I'm in a rush bc of bowling so, sorry sissy. Love you!!!
I'm happy rn. Austin an I got back togetger, my friend invited me to bowling am we haven't physically seen eachother in ages so this is friggin awesome, my brother seems to be shaping up... like... wow ok. Now all that I want is to hear word from my kohai friend and, I wish things with my nieces mother would get better bc she says we can't see my niece anymore like, mother f---. But I hope that eventually gets better and I'll pray for that so, yeah.
Also ive noticed youce stopped calling me Misty, im wondering if somethings wrong idk. If not an like, u wanna call me by my real name then thats okay =^.^= just curious as to wts going on there. Ttyl now moony moon moons, love you sissy!!! <3
Whelp... went to my first cafe, ate to much bc I didn't want to be rude bc my friends sister paid for everything, big mistake on my part i just vomited but at least its out of my system so my stomach can calm down... idk if i should lay down or not but... god i so wa t to right now. At least my stomack is starting to feel a bit better so theres that.
I want to try to make this seem really complex....
My image respired in energy, from being captive. Conflagration flourishes in the atmosphere, as I breathe, the crystalized black ice starts liquefying. Releasing me vessel, landing on all fours and then stands upright, mental thoughts circulate, making my visualzation in goals change for succession, feeling slightly irritate but saunters, leaving behind scorching footsteps in the frozen foundation's surface. Wings sprawl out a bit in stretching, jaded from dormant in ages.*
Soooooo friggin nervous for a mock interview in Financial Tech class! If only i could have chosen a job i was really interested in like something to do with graphic design, not McDonals -.-, but mom says it's just fake and i shouldnt be as nervous as i am so… but apparently other ppl maybe someone who works at said jobs, are coming in to interview us >.< wtfffffffffffffffff noooooooooooooo! Dang it i have one day to prepare basically…THANK GOD FOR MEH MOMS HALP bc ffffff god im nervoussssssssssssss! EVEN IF ITS FAKE!..... STILL! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! 3: This is worth like 48 points 3:... wish meh look Moony lol X3. Love you. Im making some progress on CN story plot so yeeeeeeeeee!... WHY ARE BEAUTIFUL SONGS ALWAYS THE FRIGGIN SADEST LIKE MOTHER FFFFFFFF! Listening to The Frey- Never Say Never. GOD DANG IT ITS BEAUTIFUL BUT ITS FRIGGIN SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I wan my Zemmy now 3:
Tbh, the way i see it, id rather look at the individual, not the reputation of the entire group. And besides, its been years, im sure in the midst of people ive met, that not all of them are like what i witnissed before i reunited with you and Nighshade. Even then i dont think all of the ones that ive seen as hostile or wanting to put us down, are entirely bad. Id want to find the brighter side of people, not be stuck with a dark or cruel side of them. (And yeah if anyone else is reading this, i had an encounter where a few certain individuals, i wont say names, taunted me, gloated about a past event that was merciless, and overall tried to drive me out and treated me like trash. Nonetheless id want to find a better side to them if i could. I see that side of me as a strength.)
I just got back in to Evanescence music =^.^= been listening to The Change, My Immortal, and Hello. ive been a huuuuuge fan of evanescence for a reeeeally long time it was my first favorite rock band, got me in to rock so =^.^=.
https://youtu.be/aQBL8OmXzp0 THAT MOMENT YOU WANNA BREAK OUT AN DANCE RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF A QUIET CLASS AN YE HAVE UR WORK DONE LIKE, MOTHER FLIP THE UUUURGE IN PREP FOR LIKE TODAY I SWAER! THE ONLY SAFE PLACE WAS ALONE IN THE FRIGGIN ELEVATOR AN I JAM FOR A GOOD 15 SECONDS!
fair warning, my day was FRIGGIN EXCELENT untiiiill a certain week comes up =_=. Once i get home an take somethin i should be good after a bit though. ANYWAY *Caramelldansens to Sean Paul- Temperture. an pokes your cheek to the beat like a weirdo an then jams* :3 :3 :3 :3 :3 :3 =^.^=. Good music im tryign to keep happy an jam with smaller movements. "I GOT THE RIGHT TEMPERATURE FOR SHELTER YOU FROM THE STORM!!" :D
... ... .. I think i just descovered a new anime throug hPinterest suggestions... ive just only seen pictures so far... but its Maid Sama... eh heheheh one pic though >.< iiii dunno wtfs happenin but hoooolly flip. anyway, it seems interesting either way. it looks liek it has some good funny moments to i like those in anime :3
Hey Moony, mornin. Planning on making a Lion King pic for my whole Theatre class, then individual ones, the characters each person plays, as well as pics for all four of the teachers :3 so yaaay i got a project imma be workin on! Worrying about a certain gradei need to graduate, its a C rn, and im gonna try my hardest so it doesnt drop aand so it can possibly go up so :3 its a harder class though -.- Financial Tech *sighs* wish meh luck lol im trying my best! How are you though? hows life? ive been thinking about you guys more and more throughout the week, an also thinking of my zemmy a lot to. Nighty messages me and sent me these images of a really neat fox on Roblox lol. Random but im happy she messaged me, i wish we could all talk more. you me and her. she said she is graduating in six weeks as well so, lol. There have been comments on my blog post on the FRS wiki ... ... .. *sighs* ill hold true to some of my pacifist views even here with Balto's inputs. Tbh though this is just childish, like, friggin annoying dude we dont know how large other ppls groups are and, really does that even matter??? i mean, seriously -.-. I see our groups as family not just, having our groups be larger, seriously -.-.
Gonna make a whole pic for the theatre class, then individual ppl(characters that they are in the play) including the four teachers(asking them what their favorite characters, scenes or songs are). so yeah i got that goin for me :3. Ive also been getting ideas for like poems(or song lyrics :3) to write about wt i feel about certain things like ppl, or certain times in life. so theres that too.
aaaaaaaaaaaand i just repeated myself on the lion king stuff... ... ... =_= oops... XD sorry lol im tired an got a bit of a headache(imma start wearing my glasses more now after this lol -.- may be the other thing, but it could be that so yeah).
Mornin moon I hope to he on after I eat, clean, an do laundry lol. https://youtu.be/HS-eC8hdeh4 such a good sobg we dud this for the play. I can sing ecery part in thus nearly lol im addicted to both versions of this. He lives in you and they live in you. The play is beautiful!!!
Morning Moony. I have a bit of news.
1 Allseeing(Blaze) started talking to me about two days ago and he seems a bit different, or, showing more of a side to him then i expected. He said he's been loosing contact with people, and wanted to keep the ones he has, and that that included me. So, theres that.
2 One of my irl friends came over yesterday and, well a while ago she sent this sweet text that, at first i thought she pulled it of the internet somewhere, but she actually wrote it herself and, at that time i was upset because half of it i didnt see as true so, i asked her yesterday if that was something she wished would be true and then the conversation got, idk i guess we were both confused but then my mom stepped in and gave a shot at explaining everything, and did it spot on to, amazing.
Basically my old friend and i havent talked much really at all, and well my friend realizes some things about our past and wants a good relationship with me again, and just hearing all of that, ive realized that being left with my own thoughts about her for way to long with nothing else to think about but past issues, i wasnt willing to give her a chance until my mom said yes to her coming over yesterday even when i was (reeeally stupidly) fighting it(i couldnt bc of previous texts, that would have been dumb lol).
But now that we've hung out again and, had that talk right before she left, im kind of glad mom forced that, and ... *smiles* im happy i have the chance to gain a long lost friendship back and maybe start over and make things a lot better now that me and my friend are older.
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3 Holly shiznit im just realizing all of wt i ust typed in the last paragraph, about myself while i was typing that... ... ... wow ... ... ...
you still have my pic for my writting right? you might want to save it somewhere bc, yeah i may delete it off here idk XD. this is for Core Nature so, lol ill have to reveal it to SL(Core Nature marked ppl) sometime. Ill make a locked channel and paste the word key in it an, only ppl with Core Nature mark can read it. did you say you wanted the core nature mark???
ive gotten a lot of free time at school actually bc im getting meh work done, so. yay- awww FUDGE TODAY IS DISTRICT MUSIC FESTIVAL CRAAAAAAAP I HATE THIS SO MUCH! I have a LOT of flaws when it comes to playing the violin and i get so nervous at these things and im worried like hail theyll call ppl one by one and ffffffffffffffffffffffffffff nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!
Alrighty so, other news: got a shot last night so my arms atill sore uuuugh, think imma bit sick rn bc i was exhausted yeaterday an i started coughing an niw wheh i cough it hurts an my throat and chest are funky, i just met someobe i may have known in elementary through facebook, and oooomfg the doctor recommended eatibg more peanut butter which is awesome bc i love peanut butter so we made these smoothies with milk, ovaltine, peanut butter and a banana and oooooh myyyyy GHAWD it is SO good!!! <3
Today was a half day at school. I'll be on after I clean out my mom's car(hope it won't take yo long but idk it's trashed... somewhere in the middle of long time to short) and dishes (i dont have much sooo yay for that. Not as much as i ysuslly do anyway).
Um, hey moony? its kinda important, could you message Leo for me and ask whats wrong? he send me a few things and im really worried about him but i cant respond to him right now. Can you tell him i said this -> "Leo, did something happen? I dont think you should give up on everything, im here for you whenever I can be. I wish i could get on more but right now school is getting super busy with graduation. Your one of my best friends and, i dont like seeing you down like this. I have confidence in you and youve done some amazing things, you're a great person and you dont deserve everything you've worked for to crumble. Also, are you alright phyically? I read you have a headache, and dont say that you hope it kills you, because i care about you and done want that to happen. Your kinda like a brother to me in a sense... Look i know we just know each other online, but i guess if we were good friends irl like we are through, well, how we know each other then i'd see you as a brother really... if that makes any sense. I hope you feel better soon, Leo. Love you". Sorry but i cant respond to him rn -.- wish i could, sorry.